October 13, 2015

Never Going Back...

The Edison Eagle

Recently I was forced had an opportunity to revisit my old high school. Not that it was something I WANTED to do, but I HAD to do it. My son's soccer team was playing a game there. No big deal really, I actually thought it was kinda "funny" that he would be playing there. And then, the weekend came, the time was here, I would be going back to the school that I went to for four years out of my young life. Those four years that are supposed to be "the best years of your life". I was feeling...I don't know, apprehensive? I can't quite come up with the right word, so I looked it up. And this is what I found...

uneasy, worried, nervous, fearful, hesitant, frightened, concerned, angst-ridden, anxious, afraid, doubtful, jittery, jumpy, suspicious, uncertain, uptight, alarmed, butterflies, disquieted, foreboding, frozen, get vibes, have a hunch, have cold feet, have funny feeling, have stage fright, hung up, in a cold sweat, in a dither, in a sweat, jellyfish, lily-livered, mistrustful, running scared, scaredy-cat, shaky, stiff, troubled, weak, worried sick

Yep, that sounds about right, even in a dither, jellyfish, lily-livered sounds right.

High school was NOT the "best time of my life", in fact, it was a very hard time for me. Hard in every way imaginable. I was not a great student, I was not in the popular crowd, I was not a 'jock', I was not a 'burn out', 'nerd' or 'theater geek'. I was nothing, I was 'unlabeled'. I did not get asked to dances. I was awkward, taller than most and just awkward, I was invisible.

My locker was halfway down on the right (photo taken from the old "smoking section")
But, before I go too far into my pity party, I DID have some good friends that did have some of those labels and did get invited to dances, and weren't so silly looking. And they are still some of my closest friends to this day. I was in every way included in their lives.  And truth be told, I really did have some fun times. There were pep rallies, football games and there were some activities I was a part of.

Student section of the bleachers

So, I made the trip back to the high school that I graduated from many a few years ago, and I think I experienced each and every one of those adjectives listed above.

However, the school has changed so much in appearance that I found it difficult to "see my past" in those halls. Gone was my locker, gone was the "smoking section" that I had to walk through to get into the school, :)  but also gone were the bad memories. I actually remembered the happy times that were experienced there. I was able to see the school for what it was and what it is. And that is, a new beginning for students on the brink of their independence, ready for the best years of their life!

"And I'm never going back
To my old school"

"My Old School"
-Steely Dan

Joining Kathy at "You'll Shoot You/re Eye Out" for Song-ography.
Where song + photo = song-ography
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Onward Eagles!



  1. About 5 years ago, I moved back to very near where I grew up. And you know what? I STILL haven't been back to my high school since I graduated 35+ years ago! I keep saying I'm gonna go visit. Yet I haven't. Part of me wants to see it again....but then again, there is that other part of me, haha. Thanks for joining in at Song-ography.